Tuesday, April 22, 2008
same ol. same ol.
i haven't write for quite a bit now. one because i dont have an internet connection at home. and of course the major reason is that i dont have the luxury of time anymore. same ol same ol excuses right? ;)
anyway, let's start with what has happened in my life right now. nothing much. i got prom
- xoxo
Let this be our lil secret ;)
17:45 Posted in Sex. Relationships. And my men. | Permalink | No of Beatings (0) |
back with some ol stories
i haven't write for quite a bit now. one because i dont have an internet connection at home. and of course the major reason is that i dont have the luxury of time anymore. same ol same ol excuses right? ;)
anyway, let's start with what has happened in my life right now. nothing much. i got prom
- xoxo
Let this be our lil secret ;)
17:31 Posted in Sex. Relationships. And my men. | Permalink | No of Beatings (0) |
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Another Year
2008 in just around the corner. what a cliche. the same old shit year after year. NYE after NYE. when will it end?
am gonna have my new wish list. a lonnnnggggg dreadful post on how I only slept with 2 new men this year and how I am planning to get sleep with at least 4 guys. one of em.. have to be either German or Spanish. MmMmm.. that'd be nice *rubbing hands gleefully* ive never slept with any of em yet =)
and i'll be complaning on how boring my NYE is. and how i want to make a different in 2008. how I'd change.. bla bla bla..
it will never end.
Happy New Year ppl =)
- xoxo
Let this be our lil secret ;)
20:01 Posted in Life | Permalink | No of Beatings (0) |
My First Brazilian
Not a brazilian man.. unfortunately =(
Brazilian wax is more precise. And it was the longest 15 minutes of my life. Strip by strip. The girl who did me was really nice and she got me through it. The finishing wasn't as what I have expected but it's kind of alright for a first timer.
I learn one thing though. To keep at least 1cm long before going. I actually had trimmed it the night before. Embarrass that the shop might think that I have a weird hair fetish.. or even worse.. manless =P
I'd like to thank my colleague who has been very supportive towards me. She has been doing brazilian since like ages ago. She has tried shops after shops.. wax after wax and apparently, the shop she recommended me is the best so far for her. And I agree. The services this shop offers are excellent as well. Kudos to their lovely waxers ;)
So am I going again? Well.. Proudly I'd say that I am going to stay away from my shavers for a very long time.
Am a strip'er girl now =)
- xoxo
Let this be our lil secret ;)
19:41 Posted in Life | Permalink | No of Beatings (0) |
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
The surprise long distance calls
He called. Finally. After 2 long quiet months.
I can’t remember if I told you this that I have actually sent an ultimatum email about a few weeks ago. About 3 weeks before his 'reappearance'. That was the last email. I wrote that if he doest call me before his birthday, on the 11th November, I’d understand that he's finally gone. For good.
To my surprise, just about 2 hours before the countdown to his birthday (2000hrs @ 10/11 his time and mine at 1400hrs @ 11/11) he called. I didn’t know what to do.. or say. He was mumbling. He sounds terrified. I think he was trying to be a man about it. The conversation went something like this.
Him: Bo?
Me: yeah
Him: hmmm..
Me: hey TNG, happy birthday.
Him: thanks. Am sorry I didn’t call. I just got your emails.
Me: righhhhhttttt.. (Accidentally, full or sarcasm)
Him:......
Me: are you alright?
Him: yeah I am
Me: u don’t sound alright
Him: I just got back. I was not in the country. But I was really really near you.
Me: Okie
Him: I was really near you. Am sorry that I didn’t call you. I can explain.. But then u'll think that I am making excuses. I was not ignoring you.
Me: Okie
Him:...
Me: TNG, I just don’t feel like talking right now.
Him: I totally understand and respect your decision.
Me:..
Him: Okie then.. Bye..
Me: bye TNG
*The phone line went dead.
I was soooooo shocked! I just don’t know what to say. He caught me by surprise. Tell you the truth.. I had everything planned. I was waiting for the clock to strike 4pm, so that it will be midnight at his place and then I’ll just text him a simple birthday wish. Which officially tells myself, that's it. No more confusions from him. I just didn’t understand why he would do that. Call me.. When he can just text me instead..
I actually cried right after the call. It seems that my life is crumbling on me again. With the same reason.. Men.. Damn it! I just hate them! When I was just able to accept that he's ignoring me.. Then he comes back. TNG.. U are the most wicked man in the whole wide world.
But that was not the last time I heard from him. He actually called me again. The same night. And here goes the conversation..
Him: hi Bo
Me: owh hi TNG. hMmm.. What time is it now?
Him: it's 1030am here. What time is it over there?
Me: it's 230am
Him: owh sorry. But I just need to tell you something
Me: huh?
Him: *mumble mumble mumble*
Me: huh? Sorry? The line is bad. What is it again?
Him: I care for you, Bo
Me: righhhttttttt (the same accidentally full of sarcasm reply)
Him:....
me:....
him: are you going to work tomorrow?
me: yeah
him: well, then I should let you sleep. am sorry if I interrupted your sleep
me: it's Okie..
him: bye Bo
me: bye TNG. have a wonderful birthday.
him: thanks.
*I ended the conversation by clicking the red button.
there.. the last point of contact we had. I couldn’t sleep after that. kept thinking about him. I desperately wanted to hear his reasons.. but I know am just trying to fool myself. he doesn’t have any real concrete reason for doing what he did to me. 2 fucking silence MONTH!! what reason do you have for that?
I know he went back to Thailand for his friend's wedding. that was what he meant by he was near to me. he should have called. or probably drop me a text msg. but he didn’t. and I have actually texted him once.. but the reply was disappointing. as though he didn’t know my number. that was exactly after a month of his disappearance act.
I wish he could just leave me like that. I didn’t know what was intention for calling me and saying those you-care-about-you shit. it has been a week after his last call. he's back on silent mode again. I just don’t understand what he's doing to me. but I came up with several 'reasons' why he was acting so weird:
1. He's married.
2. He finally realizes that our so-called relationship just couldn’t work. the distance is too damn bloody a lot.
3. He got back to his ex gf
4, He's going to be posted in Iraq. he once told me that his boss offered him for a post there. good money but very risky, and I told him not to.. coz it's dangerous.
5. He just plain playing with me. he never had any interest in having a serious relationship with me.
that’s the best possible reasons (or rather excuses for me to feel good about). but I know that I have been plain screwed. he doesn’t have a reason. he just wants me out of his life.
I sent a final email to him. stating that I didn’t know how to react when he called. but I didn’t receive a reply. deep down I wanted him to reply. to explain.. and beg me to forgive him. but that's only a thought. which will never happened. I know I know.. pathetic Bo!
so here goes.. am gonna delete him from my life and move on. first thing first.. I need to find a rebound guy. a new rebound guy.. I need to get laid. the last laid I had was with Mr. Single Malt about a month ago. I need fresh meat.
I don’t know how and where am gonna find one. but am gonna ;)
- xoxo
Let this be our lil secret ;)
21:10 Posted in Sex. Relationships. And my men. | Permalink | No of Beatings (0) |