Bo's Little Black Book

i was going through this online site and found this article which took my attention; especially these questions the author were highlighting.

1. What is it about "bad boys" or men that aren't "available" that is attractive to women?  And to you?

To me, the challeges of course. And they even taste better; like a forbidden fruit ;) yummy.. 

2. Have you ever dated a guy even though you knew he was a "bad boy" - or found out soon into things?

Hahaha.. been there done that. A lot of freaking time!  

3. Is there a "nice guy" in your life who would make a great companion but you're not attracted to or share a"connection" with?

Yeah. Several previous men that I have dated and also those who I didn't. What happened to them? Either they remain as good close friends or just another someone from the past.

So regrets? None whatsoever.

At least I think I'm helping these men in a way. To take that extra steps.. particularly with girls like me ;) 

Life has been great for the past few days.

I attended a cocktail event on Thusday which was supposed to be great as they were serving alcohol all night long but I had to restrained myself from drinking since that all of my bosses were there. Shucks!! I was terribly craving for some alcohol but the rational side of me told me that I cannot reveal that dark person deep buried inside :(

Other than that, I had a great time with my white colleague though. He was very entertaining and everything he says amuses me. He is kind of a cool guy I think.

Ouh and Mr Snap Snap is back. He texted me when he touched down KL and probably we'll meet up tomorrow. To discuss about his Business Card that I'm working on now. Meeting him up in Bangsar after his Judo class.

This weekend is going to be a busy weekend for me. I have 2 weddings; Saturday (my best friend's sister-in-law's) and Sunday (my party friends - both the bride and groom). And my company is holding this soccer event between my company and our "special project" company. I'm their official "Cheerleader" for both team. hehehe..

Well I guess I have to slot Mr Snap Snap somewhere. I actually wanted to invite him to the Saturday's wedding but I can't bring him to the company's event though. It will be too much. I mean, he is just not there yet. I don't think I'm ready to introduce him to the world. Not just yet.

I'm having problem sleeping lately.


Since the day I came back from the event in Johore. Everything seems to be out of place, I realized.<


My mood swings are going haywire and I just can't believe myself that I nearly went out with Mr Single Malt Sex tonight. Ouh my.. SO WRONG!! Luckily I didnt.


Mr Snap Snap is not in town bacause he has some training thingy going on in Johore. Yes, he went there right after I return from the visit. He has been there since Monday evening and coming back on Thursday. So, I'm kinda lost without him actually coz basically, I don't have anyone to come back to now. I mean to meet online (Yeah.. I'm such a loser!! :P) Ah.. it's okie. I was thinking of asking him to accompany me to a close friend's sister's wedding this Saturday afternoon and perhaps catch a movie in the evening. Still stalling the idea though. I'm not sure if I'm ready to introduce him to my friends just yet.. HmMmM

And.. since Mr Snap Snap is not around.. I met an old friend last Tuesday, Mr Fast Car (he drives an EVO VIII). Well, actually he was not really a friend. He was one of the guys that I went out but didn't have sex with. He was such a good flirt and cheeky but nothing really happened. Coz at the same time while we were going out, I fell for who I thought was Mr Charming Steward (until I found out that he was actually Mr Steward Limp Dick - only knew after I slept with him of course). I chose Mr SLD instead of Mr FC. STUPID!

Well anyway, meeting with Mr Fast Car was great. He was fun as ever and at the same time, remain a gentleman that he is. He didn't change one bit. He was the same ol guy I went out with 2 years ago but probably different in a way he presented himself. A more mature guy I guess. Would I go out with him again now? HmMm.. am not so sure. Probably.

HmMmM.. my body is tired but my mind wouldn't let me rest.

I NEED MY SLEEP! 

I just got back from a 4-hours journey and I'm freaking tired.

Ouh yeah.. And I got another DJ to my collection on my trip ;) A cute one.  

Just the other day, I was watching "AC Disini" on our local cable, Astro. It's a Malaysian local artist gossip show which on that day, was featuring a newly engaged couple. Lisdawati and Fauzi-whats-his-face. Hey let me stressed out that I was spending some quality time with my mother which at that particular time; wanted to watch the show.

I don't really keep myself updated with these locals artist gossips like my mum do but sometimes I entertain myself by reading about them in the newspapers. Like this particular actress, she had 2 stupid HUGE controversial issues; she got beaten by another actress while doing a drama scene and the other issue was she didn't invite her biological father to attend her engagement reception. Yeap.. Our local newspaper would just write about ANYTHING!


And I've actually seen her live in KL before and I must admit that without make up, she still look good. Some of my friends told me that she's "Kampung" (which means very outdated in very bad local Malay ways) but I think she's an attractive woman.. but not until I saw the show.

Ouh my.. was I surprised. She's an ultimate BIMBO with CAPS on. And I was also disappointed. No wonder my friends refer her as "Kampung". She gave me the impression that she's just plain dumb! She kept on giving stupid non-related answers when the host bombarded her with questions. And she was practically transparent when her fiance joined her on set. She shared with the whole freaking country (like we care!) almost their entire love story. Imagine if they have more time allocated for the show. Shish!

Today while I was on my nicotine break at the office pantry with my guys, I saw her picture on the cover of the newspaper . I didn't bother to read the article since it'll definitely write some stupid shit about her (and I know that she deserves it now).

However, I told my colleagues about the show I saw on TV. And how I was surprised that she has no brain. By plain.. A BIMBO. But instead of receiving any remarks on my comments, they just smiled and replied, "That's how we like them". Erk!!

To be honest, that was not the first time guys told me that they prefer women without brains. Yeah sometimes it's alright but please.. not all the time. Even I can't stand men with puny little mind. And sadly, I have bright intelligent girl friends who'd act like stupid blonds (Pardon the description. We asians have black hair) around men. Seriously. Jokes aside.

I feel sorry for these girls. The trouble they go through to get their men? By pretending to be stupid? hMm.. Not really a bright move but hey it does work for them. And these men are obviously taking advantage of them. *siGh* Ahh.. as long as they're happy I guess.

This is just one of the distorted perceptions of beauty.

Dove Ad on beauty. Nice one. 

The server at work is fuctup again. I have not done anything that's related to work since I came in this morning. We can't receive emails nor use the intranet facilities. The only one good thing that is working is, the internet. So here I am. Trying to come up with something productive for self-satisfaction. 

Anyway, I just noticed that all my previous comments are gone! Shish! Okie not like I am into these comments thingy but sometimes I just like to hear feedbacks especially from those pissed off readers. And to invigorate my ignorance to My Black Book, I just realized that Blogspirit has this function that will block incoming comments after a certain period of time. I was thinking of changing to another service provider again, but having to design and come up with another layout? hMmM.. Perhaps next time ;)

Speaking of ignorance, I'm quite pissed off with a workmate of mine. He is I-Dont-Care-About-Shit person. And believe me, not in a good way. Cause he will not only gets himself into trouble.. he'll drag us down as well. But when it comes to positive feedbacks, he'll be the 1st person to recognize it. It just pisses me off BIG time. We also refer him to "Ninja" as he keeps on dissapearing from the office for his "special meetings" and the best bit is, no one notices his absence until we need something from him.

- Ignorance is often misinterpreted as a synonym of Stupidity, and is as thus often taken as an insult, when really it is, in its correct form, not an insult at all but more of a criticism. Hence the derogatory aphorism "You can fix ignorance but you can't fix stupid." - wikipedia on "Ignorance"

 
So who the hell did say "Ignorance is Bliss?"

I had coffee again with Mr Snap Snap. He called me at the office in the evening to invite me for coffee so I went.

Well actually, apart of me didn't want to go. Don't get me wrong. I am not about to ditch him (yet!) but I was not feeling at my best today. I had put on the oversize pink shirt (which my MUM bought me) and my Zara pants. 2 items which I rarely wear to work. I took me several assurance for my colleagues to actually decide to meet him. Anyway, most of them advised me to powder my nose and I was ready to go!

Ahhh.. and did I mention about my HUGE zit? Ergh!! Yeah it's nearly that time of the month when my zits are popping like mushrooms after a rainy day.  They just can't stop. I have spent a huge amount of money for my acne problem but only one thing worked. Contraceptive pills which I had to stop. I've even went to numerous skin specialists but it will only stop during the time of treatment. *siGh* According to my normal GP who suggested the contraceptive, I have imbalance hormones. Too much of estrogen and the most effective way to control it is going on the pills. My mum and a couple of ex boyfriends were against it so I was on and off it for quite awhile. And I also realized that I wasn't lubricant enough when I took it. So I stopped. HmmM..

Anyway, back to Mr Snap Snap. I had a good time. We met up at Starbucks and discussed some photography stuff. I am still working on his Business Card by the way. And he told me that he has opened a company, here in Malaysia. Cool ey? Well I think it's cool cause he has the drive to materialize his dreams and willing to take the plunge in a foreign country (which English, his first language is our 2nd language). Wishing him all the best!! ;) I bet he'll do great cause his works are fantastic. In a creative kind of way. Not the conventional type which is pretty and nice to look at. His work are wacky and he definitely know his stuff.

As the evening went by, we talked about a lot of work related things (I know I know.. It's boring but I ran out of ideas!!) and got into a rather sensitive topic, which is; "have any of the work-related-men (I don't mean colleagues here) asked me out?". I didn't know what to answer so I lied a little. I mean.. I didn't really 100% lied to him. I like to think that what I replied was partly true.

They do of course.. it's just normal (yeah for a guy to ask a girl out) but (okie here's come the "lying" bit) I've never entertained them. I'm still young and I don't want to harm my reputation (in Oil business) and career advancement.

Yeah I know, it's a big lie but I just can't help it. I can't be telling him that I've been going out  with my clients. Like I have repeatedly mentioned, some stuff are better left unsaid (or probably require some lying).

And you know what, he is such a nice bloke. Probably he is too nice for me to even have sex with. Like what happened to my last Mr DJ. HmMm.. But he is definitely worth keeping as a friend though. Perhaps we should just be friends then. Yeap friend. Although friend with benefits sounds better. hehehe..  

We'll see how it goes ;)

Ouh yeah.. he wants to meet up again on Friday. His business card discussion.

i had fun today ;)


Today, my office had an "Open House" (non-alcoholic event) thingy at one of the exclusive spots in town. Everyone was there. The ship brokers, major oil companies, bunker terminaling service providers, off shore and on shore engineering companies.. in short, there were our clients, soon-to-be-clients, vendors, soon-to-be-vendors and many more.
 

This event was actually catered for our Klang Valley contacts. Will soon have another one in Johore next Saturday for our Singaporean contacts.
 

Again, I'd like to point out that I HAD FUN ;) Well, I like to meet new ppl. While establishing and keeping good relationship between companies with our contacts, I have my own agendas as well ;) Meeting men. Meeting well paid off men ;)
 

My department was specially instructed by our higher management to mingle around and entertain our guests. Yes, I'm in that "cool" dept. We got to have fun! Yeay! So, I was going around from one table to another giving out business cards to ppl I don't know (also to those who I don't want to know). Anyway, I was eyeing this particular gentleman sharing a table with one of my Vice Presidents. I didn't notice him at 1st.. his table was actually behind me until I got up to ambush the desert buffet table. He gave me a wink and stupidly.. I repeat.. stupidly I smiled shyly. Ergh.. I don't know what got into me. I was being stupid again.


Then I sat at my table terribly ashamed of my stupid girly reaction. I was acting like a stupid school girl. shish! Embarrassed, I huffed my way out for a ciggie-break. A so-called attempt to cool down. As I came back through the main door, I saw the whole table (with an additional person; which happened to be a close colleague of mine) were looking at me. As though they all knew how silly I reacted. Then, from afar, my colleague called out my name and introduced the gentlemen at his table. My heart was racing really fast. I was really so freaking scared that I'll make a fool of myself again. With a handshake and followed by a brief introduction (plus a couple of flirtatious glances of course), we exchanged business cards. He is.. Mr Ship Broker, working for a Singaporean Shipbroking company ;) and oUh yeah.. he's an expatriate by the way. I have yet to ask his origin.  

And to my surprise, he actually said that he had seen me before. On one of his visits to my HQ office to meet my Terminal VP. That was about 4 months ago. I was actually surprised and of course flattered with his remarks. HE NOTICED ME! AND REMEMBERED! Two extra points for him there. We didn't really talk that much as we had a few interferences (my bosses kept joining our table) so I left for another table. Mingling again and at the same time.. trying to look not so desperate. But deep down.. I wanted to giggle like a school girl.

 
For the rest of the night, I only saw him from afar. That was it. But no worries. I have his card now. Plus he's coming again for our second event in Johore. So I'm definitely meeting him up again ;) and I know what to do next. hihi.

 
Ahh.. and you know what. I think this is kind of cute. When I was outside smoking trying to calm myself down, the colleague of mine who sat at his table told me that he purposely introduced us because Mr Ship Broker was actually OUT LOUD checking me out. He didn't know then that my colleague knew me. He was complimenting on the pretty girls there and kept mentioning about this "attractive lady" which he pointed at me when I was re entering the hall. No wonder there was a HUGE grin on my colleague's face and Mr Ship Broker was blushing. Hey.. I think it's kinda cute. ahhh ;)
 

So am thinking now. Should I mail him tomorrow? Or wait till the saturday event? hmmM.. no worries. I know how to keep it clean. I've went out with a very close important client before. and Mr Ship Broker.. he is just a contact. Which I don't deal with much. HmMm.. as long as he knows how to keep secrets ;)


Ah.. Well.. I think I should wait till Saturday. And we'll see how it goes ;) 

This is just one of the signs telling the whole wide world that BO is freaking BOred!!!


1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was your first thought?  Not another another freaking HUGE zit again.

 
2. When is the next time you will have sex? I'd say tomorrow but aint gonna count on it. Honestly? I'll get it in the next 2 weeks. By hook or by crook. If I can't get Mr Snap Snap by then.. I'll settle for my Mr Single-Malt-Sex then. *siGh*

 
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DUCK"? Suck.. haha bet u had "fuck" in your mind right :P

4. Favorite planet? I'd say Venus but I've never been there. So I guess I'll just settle for earth then ;)

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile? My mum (OMG.. I can't believe that I really checked my phone. I have no life!)

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? My msg tone which is the Kill Bill tune

7. What shirt are you wearing? Nothing. It's late and I don't like to have barrier between the sheets and my body.

8. What were you doing 20 minutes ago? Being a loser. Onlining.

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing? I'm barefoot!

10. Bright or Dark Room? It depends on with whom will I be with in the room  of course :P

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey? Don't know them so I don't want to judge them.

12. If you're in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on? The nearest to the TV set. Or the farthest to the window.

13. What were you doing at midnight last night? SLEEPING!! on a Saturday night!! I don't have a life. Remember?

14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say? It was at 1812hrs and it came from some weird phone text provider. So, am not going to right it down cause it'll remind how a loser I am.

15. How do you like your eggs? In bed.

16. What's a word/phrase that you say a lot? "FUCK YOU" and "SHUT UP"

17. Who told you he/she loved you last? Erk! Love? Can't really remember. Does "I love to have sex with you" count? If it doesn't. I can't remember. Seriously.

18. Last furry thing you touched? My friend's weird blouse with the furry collar.

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? None. The last time was about a month ago.

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? None. My semi-auto NIKON SLR is in a box now and trying hard to collect dust :P

21. Favorite age you have been so far? 19. I had everything.

22. Your worst enemy? My acne-prone skin. Ergh.. when will it stop?

23. What is your current desktop picture? Myself. Yeah Okie.. I know.. I'm freaking vain aight.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone? "okie mama"

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly which one would you pick? Okie now. Which currency are we talking here? 

26. Do you like someone? Like as in? If like "like".. I'd say yes. Currently Mr Snap Snap but I can't really tell how long this interest would last. Ouh well..

27. The last song you listened to? "Chasing Cars" - while watching "Grey's Anatomy" finale episode of the 2nd season.

28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, what would you do? I'd call for help while praying hard for him/her to survive.

29. If you could punch 1 person in the face who's in your life right now, who would it be? And wouldn't get into trouble? If so, my sis-in-law. Well.. going to be my ex sis-in-law.

30. What is the closest object to your left foot? My IKEA red container which I put all my bags in there.

I need something new in my life. It has been a bore for quite some time now and I'm just tired.

Everyday is a routine. I don't have anything interesting to write anymore. Cause nothing is going on in my life!! NOTHING!!

I am actually waiting for the end of the month. Planning to have a blast. Probably go partying or something. 

I really need to get drunk.

And laid.