Bo's Little Black Book

2008 in just around the corner. what a cliche. the same old shit year after year. NYE after NYE. when will it end?

am gonna have my new wish list. a lonnnnggggg dreadful post on how I only slept with 2 new men this year and how I am planning to get sleep with at least 4 guys. one of em.. have to be either German or Spanish. MmMmm.. that'd be nice *rubbing hands gleefully* ive never slept with any of em yet =)

and i'll be complaning on how boring my NYE is. and how i want to make a different in 2008. how I'd change.. bla bla bla..

it will never end. 

Happy New Year ppl =) 

Not a brazilian man.. unfortunately =(

Brazilian wax is more precise. And it was the longest 15 minutes of my life. Strip by strip. The girl who did me was really nice and she got me through it. The finishing wasn't as what I have expected but it's kind of alright for a first timer.

I learn one thing though. To keep at least 1cm long before going. I actually had trimmed it the night before. Embarrass that the shop might think that I have a weird hair fetish.. or even worse.. manless =P

I'd like to thank my colleague who has been very supportive towards me. She has been doing brazilian since like ages ago. She has tried shops after shops.. wax after wax and apparently, the shop she recommended me is the best so far for her. And I agree. The services this shop offers are excellent as well. Kudos to their lovely waxers ;)

So am I going again? Well.. Proudly I'd say that I am going to stay away from my shavers for a very long time.

Am a strip'er girl now =)

it has been a very enjoying week for me. it's 'Raya' and bosses are not around.

So it's HEAVEN! we had a group bfast on Tuesday morning (after coming in at 930am). I left early (about 7pm or so) and went out for a drink session with my girls. have been coming into the office nearly 10am every morning. i got to complete a HUGE bundle of my pending paperworks. updated my worksheet. and now.. surprise surprise.. i get to write to you. AT THE OFFICE! hah! ;)

Tomorrow is Friday and i dont know if i should go out drinking after work or straight home. 

Raya, it was a bit different in particular.

I can't really remember when was exactly the last time we did the customary 'visiting' bit during raya. Surprisingly, we did this year. Yesterday.

My first sis-in-law, my nephew and 2 nieces spent raya here. We didn't know that my stupid brother actually planned to dump them here after breaking the news that he just got married with one of his affairs mid this year (during their my brother spilt up with his 1st wife). He left his family to spend raya with his new wife and her family. jerk! he's such a drama queen (or should it be king instead?). anyway.. i hate him for that. men are just useless.

speaking of men.. papa is spending raya here this year.  he said that this year should be his 3rd wife turn but she's celebrating back her hometown, Jakarta so papa is spending raya with us instead. probably next year.. he'll get to spend it with his Indonesian wife.. she'll be here next year i think.

hey i didnt realize that i hav sooooo many good looking men in my family. i hav never though that they'll grow up to be handsome young men. seriously. am not making things up. they are my young cousins. like i said, my family and I have not been 'socializing' that much for more that 10 years so basically, the last thing i remembered about most of them is when i was giving 'money gift' during our last raya (ages ago).. and that's it. 

one family in particular was my mum's sister's family. in short.. my aunt and her family. we had a history back then. during my parents rocky period (when she got to know about papa's 2nd family), mama turned to my aunt (her sister) for comfort. it lasted for a few months and i guess my aunt couldnt take it (the additional emational burden) anymore and ditched my mum. she started spreading rumours about my family, especially my mum. not just here in KL, but to the family in Penang as well. it was really bad. 

she said that my mum was trying to seduce his husband. my brothes took drugs and was thrown of uni. one turned bad and went to prison. i left school and became a slut. my sister skipped school and i forgot wat was said more about her. arent the rumours just too much? i dont really know what was the reason for all this alledgment. as i remembered, we didnt do anything towards their family except for asking the only famiy my mum has in KL for comfort during her bad experiance with papa. her sister doesnt really care i guess.

anyway, she came by yesterday. apparently she came earlier a couple of months before seekinng for forgiveness from mama. she wanted to do her small-hajj. Mama forgave her and they have been contacting each other almost every week. yeah probably mama has forgiven her but i can still remember how she acted upon our family. we thot they cared but they just didnt bother. i didnt want meet them at 1st but mama beg us to forget about the past. so pulling my fake smile, i woke up of bed (was sleeping prior to that), looked at the mirror, tried to hand straightened by crumpled baju kurung (didnt work tho), and went downstairs. There they were, looking all pretty with their fake smiles.. i do apologize for being skeptical but i feel so indifferent towards them. 

we talked and updated each other on information. i didnt want to reveal much info. dont want em suddenly to do a background check on  me (hey what do u think? they are gossipers). and then is when i saw their grown up little boys. one is 20 and another is 15. i cant even recoginze them.. all tall and handsome. tell u the truth.. if i see them out in public before.. i might check em out (only a little due to the age gap.. hehe).. they used to be babies where they pestered me everytime i came to their place. they look so different now.

then i realize how far was the distance between my extended family and i. this was the effect of a broken family. wat a harmless divorce (which i thot was a harmless back) actually unconciously made a great impact in my life. i have never thot of it that wat. before.. ive always thot that with or without the 'first' divorce.. my parents will always be the same. dispiteful of each other. getting on both nerves everyday. so it's my job to stop caring about them and start looking out for myself. 

am writing again. i want to write again. not just to express my frustration but also to write about my believes and feelings towards life

it course of time.. i know i will change and i want to remember who i was. the only way to do that.. is to write it here.

from just a little girl who knows nothing.. to a full grown woman.

i do want to put my old life behind. but i also want to be reminded for who i was. every detail. every wonderful moment. every sad times.

and i want em all to remain a secret.

my secret.

bo's lil black book of secrets ;)

am just tired.

tired of being the problem solver. tired of babysitting. tired of trying to fit the puzzle everytime someone gave up on the piece. 

I'M JUST TIRED!!

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!

am back. with a lot of juicy stories. and updates in my life.

i stopped writing since the beginning of the year. yeah.. a friend actually found this blog and i had to shut it down. i did actually tried to register myself to another blogging site but it wasnt the same as this. so today.. officially.. it's back on again. and about my friend? ahh well.. if she is really a friend.. she'll shush things up. this is my journal.. my life story.. and i bet she knows me really well rather than to judge me.

will update this soon. especially with my latest men.. they are getting hotter and hotter.. yummy :) 

My first seat in a Ferrari.

Gosh.. I can never believe it that i'd one day sit in a Ferrari. It has never crossed my 25 years of mind or even dreamnt to be in one. To me, car is just a car. And working in an Oil and Gas company which pratically all of my bosses own ones for themselves. A big boy's toy they say. And for me, I just feel that it's a waste of the company's money.

And just a while ago, I sat in one and felt the heat of being in one of the fastest cars in the world.

Proud? Yeah probably for a little but hey.. who wouldn't?

"Fresh Starts.

Thanks to the calendar, it happens every year.

Just set your watch to January.

Our reward for surviving the whole year, bringing on the great tradition of the New Year resolution

Put the past behind you and move on.

Once you crossed the line, it is impossible to go back"

- Grey's Anatomy Season II

 

Yes people. I'm back. From my deep sleep. Yes the ones you have every end of the year when you feel like you have been woken up from a very deep freaking sleep and now.. You have to do something with you life. Make it better. Then.. You’ll fall back into lumbers and start all over again at the end of that year.  

A repetition of wasted time and effort. But yet.. I do it. We all do it. Religiously. Every year. Our New Year Resolutions ;)

Ah well, before I officially end my year of 2006 at the struck of midnight 31st of December (AT HOME!! Since that it falls on the same that of Raya Haj), and opened my new 2007 set of stories, I’d like to write that I have never regretted any of my experiences and past events. I’m proud of each one of them. They have somehow changed me and made me a wiser person. A better one.

*siGh* Things will definitely be different for me in 2007. I don’t know how, or when, but it will. I just know it.

Am back! After a month of keeping low. Sorry. I have been busy. FReaking a lot of shit had happened. Trust me. But I can't list it in details as I forgot most of the things. I do remember the key important things tho.

Here is a short summary of the my latest life updates:

1. Finally I had a fucked. Yeah a great one. With Mr. Single Malt Sex. yeah yeah I know. I promised not to mess around with someone else's boyfriend, I know but I just couldn't stand the urge anymore. And he was there.. Ah well.. it was a freaking good one so no regrets. No regrets at all ;)

2. I won 2 awards at work. Recently, we had this end of the year event, which was not too bad, and we had this award thingy going on. I was actually nominated for these 3 categories;

- The Most Humorous Female Employee 2006
- The Most Inspiring Female Executive 2006
- The Best Employee In The Department 2006

Unfortunately, I didn’t win the one award that I wanted most, The Most Inspiring Female Exec. Ahhh well.. There’s always next year. As for the humorous award.. Well, don’t ask. It’s a looooooonnnngggg story :P

3. I have been transferred to another department. It was a shocking and sad transition for me. Ouh don’t get me wrong, it’s actually a good thing which now I have 98 % authority over the terminal I’m handling. The sad part is leaving my old team and my old boss. Ahh well.. I think my bosses know better. They must have a reason to transfer me. I definitely can survive.

4. Mr Snap Snap is back in UK for Christmas with his family for 3 weeks. He went on the 16th December and I think he’ll be back after New Year. Anyway, I kinda miss him *siGh*

5. Am going for a holiday to Phuket next month with a couple of my ex-uni girl friends. 24th to 27th. Bought the flight tickets last week. Probably will stay somewhere in Patong. Still looking for a nice place to stay. Looking forward to it.

HmMmm.. I think that is about all on the updates. Will add more in the next post, should I missed out a couple of things.

Talk to you later. I need to get a shower.